jus had a chat with susan. right now im feeling so mixed up?

actually before this, cheryl and i had touched on another sensitive issue, which left me confused as well.

i have been running. away from these issues. the two important issues.

and my brother was saying, 'don always look at money to find your job.'
seriously i feel that we don understand each other at all?
IF im looking at the money, I wont find a job related to service.

after watching the chn 8 show, i feel so afraid. my brother's words came to my mind, 'look for a job you have interest in.'

accountancy.
do i have interest in it?
seriously i dunno. i cant answer.
1stly, i never work in accountancy firm before, how i know?
2ndly, i know im good at the subject. but does that mean im interested in accountant's work?


if you were to ask, im not working for money. From the start until now, de decision I made is not because of this sign, $.

I wont choose my course in the 1st place if i think money is important. Hospitality & Tourism.
Recall back, why did i choose this course. because i love interacting with people and i feel a sense of satisfaction after giving them a good service.

does this qualify?


some jobs, yes. it might fit this criteria, but after some time, the job become mundane. and slowly, i lost interest in it?

so, sometimes i wonder, So what if i like my job? At the end of the day, I will lose interest in it. Which is equal to Having no interest in the job.

you know wat i mean.

sigh.

Events. That was my 1st job. Maybe its not a company that emphasizes on events, hence I feel that its not really what i wanted? so i quit. and through this job, i learnt that we need to make a lot of sacrifices on health and time.

simply put it as no life. but de job can be meaningful.

but what if i have a family next time, am i still suitable for this kind of job?

so what do you want!

i feel really really confused.

can you give me an answer please?

accountancy job, i have been telling myself i will gain satisfaction after each task is completed. uh. but thinking of staring at the computer, checking accounts the whole day, makes me feel demoralized.

so, do i have an interest in that? im afraid not because im alrd demoralized.

and my brother was saying things like don waste your time anymore.......

i know i know.

even my godpa was asking me about entering of uni this evening over dinner. 'if you wanna go, then go. make up your mind.'

make up my mind.


so after the tedious dinner with my godpa, I saw my brother when i reached home.
then came a fight. then came my father who scolded me. then came susan.



Im supposed to be happy today, because tml is my off day, the day i have been waiting for the whole week. I have been feeling lethargic since monday. I had been thinking to take MC since monday. and i have hanged on till now.


i envy those who have a goal in their life. so no matter how hard it is, don give up. because its not easy to come up with a goal in the first place. so please go for it! try your best!


wish me luck.