keep going!

2010-01-17T14:06:00.000+08:00

i wish to be a cyborg

–noun
a person whose physiological functioning is aided by or dependent upon a mechanical or electronic device.

www.dictionary.com

2010-01-10T14:48:00.002+08:00

went to swim yst with joyce and it was great. not that de crowd and the dumb malay boys splashing water were good, it was because i finally improved on my swimming!!

hahaha i can swim faster now!! lol i finally corrected my breathing and swimming style!!

when you are in the waters, you cant think of anything but to survive. HAHA. that was the 1st thought when i swam.

subsequently, when i was in the waters, i couldnt think of anything but to try my best not to bump onto others! because it was so crowded yst, with the dumb malay boys and 2 classes of kids. hahaa. they were really cute!

and went up to joyce's house to cook SOBA!! hahaha. :) pictures will be uploaded! im too lazy to do it now. lol.

been really tired these days!!

2010-01-10T14:05:00.009+08:00

taken like a mth back too? hahaa i cant remember!

anyway we went to jog! :)

its a good day. :)

joyce looks like a school girl.

i miss those days.

hahaha elmo lost his eye that day! eh its not my fault!

:) i miss those carefree days. are we greedy or shld we get contented with what we have?

thats serlyna! :) shes not camera shy, its just tt i happened to take this when she back faced me. she even said why i didnt tell her so she could pose for the shot!

hahaha i think two of them are real cute in this pic. serlyna with her Hello kitty as usual towel on her head and joyce peeeking at me. hahaha.

de fat cat lool.

if we were all contented with what we have now, maybe we will learn to let go of things.

2010-01-10T13:56:00.002+08:00

qiudan!!! hahaha. this photo was taken a mth back! lol! but still, its worth to upload it my best friend!

both of us are really tied up with our work! and poof 2010 came without notice! hahaa. im still in 2009 ok! hahaha.

how i wish to go back to de netball times, those carefree days.

even though there might be stress from exam, at least we have each other to mug at Mac.

those were the days that i missed. ahaha. of cos not the mugging part only!! LOl. i will be crazy if i like that part ONly. hahaha. im not that sadist ok!

i miss the netball training days, where we had super flat tummy and toned legs! HAHAHA. and the satisfaction gained when we caught the ball in mid air.

hahaa. anyway maybe you wont get it if you were reading, but its ok...because my friends who know me will know lol!

sometimes i wonder issit really hard for ppl to understand what im trying to say?
lol. maybe they are jus not the right ppl .

2010-01-10T12:29:00.019+08:00

31oct 09
i do .

congrats to lirong and stanley!!! ;)))

i bet they had fun that day! haha

so it was not really easy/difficult to get the bride. ahhaa.

1st: eat oranges

2nd: ice cream with small hot chilli

3rd: soaking his feet in the ice water if ans wrongly

4th: eat samba bread

5th: dance nobody but you.

hahaa thinking back, it was quite easy!! just need to eat, and eat.

hey im happy for you!! really!!! :)

hahaha i like these two pictures because lirong looks really happy! :) haha i think that a good photographer is someone who can bring out the person's smile no matter where the place is.

so what if the room is crumped? so what if the room's lighting is not as great?

it all depends on you to bring out the best in the person you are shooting for.

lol. aiya thats only my personal view.

haha yea so you know the reason why i like this picture! we were all laughing happily!
ah boy was hiding in lirong's gown! you can see how badly he misses lirong when shes gone.

off we go!!

for that moment, i believe a marriage can be blissful.

:) i wish you guys all the best!!! hahaa.

i like the roses. hahaa.

taken by me! hahah i like this photo very much. look at the gd weather that day!

trio. ! wheres serlyna?

we had really worked hard that day!!! busy setting up the groom and his team mates, decorating the venue, and dolling up ourselves!!! :) we really deserved the angbao ok! HAHA.

haha i like the balloons!!

who will get it? hahaa.

results below.

haha actually it was not supposed to be a formal phototaking!. but it ended up that the photographers came in and then it ended up like this. haha.

de sisters! :)

stanley is really a tower!!! hes standing at 183cm???

joyce will be the next!!! hahaha.

2010-01-03T01:51:00.003+08:00

its been a while since i ran for my life at an late hour. haha ok maybe it was not that late but to me it was! haha i was at the mrt underpass and i was the one and only soul there!!

and i didnt know it was still opened! lol i ran as though someone is gg after me wahah. thinking back it was quite silly.

haha and its been a long while since i was online at this hour. gg 3am and im still here! hahaa. actually my battery is getting low.. low low low. florida. hahaaa. ok im not drunk!

and my hp kept shutting off by itself and its forever out of battery; even on the new yr's eve and today!!! man. im getting used to being alone without my hp!!

yea... it was a tiring day ! went for work. and MY ALARM DIDNT RING!!!!!!

WHY?

because my date format went crazy!!!

32/83/2009
this is the date today.

de time read 920am!!! and i was supposed to b there at 10am . hahaa. but i reached there at 1015am. not tt bad. HAHA.

well i need to train myself, especially de legs for moments like these!!

2009-12-31T18:04:00.002+08:00

disappointment rising sky high .-

what a way to celebrate the new year

at office typing this stupid post. no half day. no ~~nothing~~ everything.

yea, a sad new yr is awaiting for me. LOL. super ironic. happy new yr.

yup i still remember st asking me why is it called 'happy new yr'.

'because it has a psychogical effect on the human's mind! happy happy then it will be a happy yr! we all hope it would be a happy year dont we? i replied.

haha oh well.
i hope it will be a good yr, 2010 for everyone.

2009-12-26T23:21:00.003+08:00

if growing up robs away de laughters,

i cant upload pictures on blogger for i dunno why! i can only get link from fb to post this picture. haha.

oh ya, MERRY MERRY X'MAS!

though im not really into x'mas but well im happy that i can rest today!! :) went for a run today! 4.5KM! haha i thought i couldnt make it after the 6th round. its ALL in the mind!

saw my godpa on my way home, (i was dying of thirst) and he bought me 100 PLUS. wooo. im so lucky ok!! :) back to my godma house, i got to eat chk wings! :) i ate only ONE!! hahaha. so tempted to eat more. i feel so loved by my godparents, i was telling my godma a few days ago that its been sometime since i ate stewed chk wings cooked by her, today i got to eat it!!

i felt like a spoilt brat. i bet i was a spoil brat when i was a kid. because my godparents dote me too much! hhahaa.

no wonder i always like to laugh in the past.. i guess i was truly happy and carefree then.

i wish you can be happier too.

2009-12-22T22:54:00.008+08:00

regina's 21 st!! :)))
amber 's gardens

capturing everyone's

haha ally! :)

alley haha! knew her only that day!

:)))) im really short.

:)))

i was with her JC friends. hahaha. im supposed to be in the sec sch;'s gang!

GEEK. gosh it reminds me of chipmunk. haha. im gg to catch it this xmas!!!

de chocolate fondue that looks like shit. haha.

the JC gang that i met tt day. :) they are nice people!!:)

2009-12-22T22:39:00.010+08:00

JAp. :)))

@ ION level 1

unagi!! :)))

bugis. clarity's cafe >

tea break promo!! :)))

very unusual for us. haha.

2009-12-22T22:28:00.004+08:00

im tired, but i still wanna talk to you..
hahaa. cute eh?
i want a dog!! :)

something random i wanna share! hahaa. i saw this on channel news asia.
i wonder why im not a fan of chnnewsasia! i like JAPAN HOUR!

as i was flipping de channel i saw this! wooo! i wanna go Japan!!!!!! :) they were having steamboat at this mountainous area. and guess whats the meat? BEAR MEAT. super scary. they say its very soft. but the steamboat is APPEALING.

they were doing HUGE paper balloons. :)

i wonder why nothing special is taught at cc? lol. sg is so boringgg.

ooo the paper balloons are flown to pray for the green harvests!

can we fly some paper balloons to make wishes too?

2009-12-22T21:51:00.008+08:00

fei cu i
Dec .

we always got the impression that the price is steep.

actually it is value for money!! :)
sliced abalone with sliced fish congee :U YUMMYYYY. :)

see the 3 abalone? HAHA. i realised that abalone is not the 'rubber' we thought. i am falling in love with abalone!!! :)

:))))

its x'mas!! :) hmm i wonder how the short form comes about. x'mas? why not c'mas? haha i guess im the last person who knows about this..well im not a christian so its ok! hahaha.

exchanging presents is never exciting for me because i usually don get what i desired. LOL.!! jus kidding. maybe there is no such culture at home. yea.

nevertheless im looking forward to the holiday!!

we need a breakaway.

2009-12-18T23:21:00.003+08:00

my colleagues were saying why not we give 1 yr notice before we throw in the resignation letter. hahaha. because our notice period is 3 mths!!! Gosh!

funny.

but its not a joke!!

haha. i need to de stress!!! what are the ways to de stress besides exercising and eating? lol.

my boss is quite funny. he can smile shyly at one moment and the next moment his voice became stern and low. i dont know how he does that. hes so nice! he helped me to fix the computer! he was bending down and practically crawling in to fix the wires.

but he can be scary like i said, he can turn ard and speak with his low voice.

ok thats on a lighter note.

you never wanna to hear what bad things that have happened. haha

i feel disgusted when i hear sissy speaks. ARG. i cant stand it. cant you? sometimes it sounds like they have breathed in helium. especially when he speaks on de phone. the voice is even more SISS- ier.

ok i know theres no sissier in de dictionary.

alright thats my personal view la. haha. and it only applies to a few.

sigh. any idea on ways to de stress? hahaa.

2009-12-18T22:27:00.000+08:00

2009-12-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

sometimes we will be happier if we learn to let things go.

task 1:

to slim down before 16th jan gosh! provided that im able to resist the temptation of the
CHK WINGS.

task 2:

try to slp earlier to reduce dark eye circles. hmm so you wont see me online after 11pm haha i'll try!

task 3:

stop gg online!! i need to rest my eyes. hahaha.

i don know why am i more excited than my bro and his gf! hahaha.

another blissful event. :) it will definitely make my day.

i salute to wedding planners. :)

2009-12-11T23:51:00.002+08:00

things were back to normal for tzehui and i and looking back we were both super duper SILLY. i guess thats life, without silly stuff we wont learn to grow up. ;)

times are bad, things are not as easy as they are.

im struggling .

like an ant struggling to find a lodging place.

i just wish to run away from all these. i dont know how long can i take the pressure that is building up unknowingly.

sometimes i cant help but to feel afraid. can i really make it to be an accountant? everyone is telling me how difficult acca is. but i can only look ahead.

"fear will only make you lose more." mulan.

yea. hiding is not an option. be stronger.

2009-12-06T12:51:00.004+08:00

joyce and junxiu :)

29 nov ; wedding

l i rong & s t anely:)

was really glad that i was one of the sisters! the event was an successful one and we had enjoyed ourselves! the event had also brought us together and we are closer than before :) its amazing because its been a few yrs since we last met up .

pictures will be uploaded soon!

2009-12-04T12:00:00.002+08:00

is everything unreal.

i feel that happiness is something that we cant grab hold of.

one moment you were feeling blessed, de next moment everything came crushing down.

i don know which is which. is everything real in the 1st place?

i feel as though im still in my worst nightmare and i wish to go back to where i was .

2009-11-27T23:07:00.004+08:00

hyster ia

these few days/ wks are torturing.

i know its not only me who is facing problems in life.

when everything crumbles, what leaves behind?

the pressure is a bit too much for me to handle. right now, i just want to escape from this. im drowning in anxiety and confusion .

nobody wants to regret.

what if we do something which we will regret years later.

but who knows what will happen l-a-t-e-r?

my mum was hospitalised a few days ago and this incident made me realise how great my brother is. i cant imagine the days without him at home. the anxiety inside me is adding pressure to me indirectly.

almost every night these days i hear my dad and mum toking about resigning, money issues, medical issues. i pretended cool about all these but i jus couldnt block out the things that were registering in my mind. you know there was once when i attempted to block all these out by putting my hands over my ears.

sleepless nights were common these few days.

i was fortunate that i have met my godparents. whenever i am at my godparents' house i feel secured. i hope i can sleep forever. my godma was telling me about how $50 was so little now, and i felt so guilty about staying at her house eating lunch and dinner.

i felt the urgency of finding a job stronger than before.

but on the other hand, i cant rush things.

what i can do is to keep sending and sending resumes everyday.

because i still have to give allowance to my parents.

thats my responsibility no matter whether i have found a job or not, i realised.

the invisible pressure suffocates me sometimes.

i hate myself from feeling negative and easily affected. and im so sorry if i made you feel unhappy. i wish you will understand too.

maybe. you don love me as much as before. maybe. you prefer freedom. you know im so afraid to say this because im afraid it will be true if i say it out loud. i don wish to lose you. but i don wish you to lose what you love too.

maybe things will get better once im settled down. when i gt a direction and a stable job.

i wish both of us can be happier.

i was looking through the old pictures of myself, i don know since when i was so conscious about my smile. my smile became default.

i dunno whats the reason for the change and im seriously quite afraid.

i hope to return to the old self. but somehow i dunno how to .

2009-11-08T18:17:00.011+08:00

de thr e e dogs i have met this month :

hello thats Dolly!!!
How the name came about: cos kelvin's parents wanted more money to come in; 'duo li' hahaa. shes really shy and cute!! she looks like a white deer from far and u know what, she can touch her head using her leg!! thats like circus performance!!! hahaha. and she resembles Kelvin!!!!

kelvin's birthday party yesterday wooo! its quite fun!:) shall upload the pictures the next time! :)

she is mei mei.

How de name came about: she is dolly's sister, mei mei. hahah! life can be simple/ lol. she is a bit gone case. one moment she knows you, the next moment, she barks at you. haha.

da ta!! he is Ah boy! hahah. and hes the youngest cos hes 4 yrs old! :) very handsome boy there! he is lirong's dog!! :) he stood up and waved his tail when he saw me! :))))

2009-11-08T18:01:00.011+08:00

Hk cafe @ Db! :) my fav!! i jus don like de noodles! hahah.

de chair looks cold and uncomfortable, but its very comfortable! i like de design of the chair!

its light n good.

M OS :))

my face looks bloated!

'K'!!!!

it captured my attention in the middle of the street.

i like the colors! haha i forced him to take picture with it lol hey its nice!

the beancurd city's soy milk is fab!!! :) smooth and not too sweet!!

2009-11-08T17:17:00.006+08:00

st and me went changi airport to eat popeye. hahha. eh i realised de cartooon is as nice as before. hahaha.

saw the tv? its a good spot. lol.

haha our new toothbrush! :)

pretty things. :)

2009-11-08T15:48:00.023+08:00

Mixed tape

of sadness and happiness

huiling says all girls look de same haha hey no hor! hahaha. some gt eyelashes!! hahaha. some small eyes some big eyes!

returning to
demp sey h i l l

de usual loading bay

memories flashing b a c k .

this was the 1st group that i knew when i 1st entered. i found them fun-loving and i did enjoy myself for that period. haha. t h ank you for bringing me to 1.5 hrs to 2 hrs of lunches. hahaa.

uh thats huiling!! haha. we both love cola lollipops! ;) i will miss your funny stories about yourself! hahaha.

hey thats maddie! eh i tot shes a malay!!! but shes a chinese and shes wonton cos her surname is Wan. hahaa. i like her pose!

ok its a funny group. hahaha. but thats the smoking corner that most ppl will go to if they are having problems concentrating at work or feeling bored. & that includes me!

amber and her funny jokes!

this is the only picture with the 3 of us! :) susu and velerie are reallly nice ppl. both of them cooked for me before!!! im touched, thank you!!!:) i hope everything goes well with both of you!:)

hahaha. stupid facees. in case you thought i gt only one pose.

thats peiying, ;) shes the 1st person in finance dept whom i think is warm and helpful.

oh man! how can i miss out susu! i regretted not having all lunches with her cos shes really nice! when im worried or down shes always there to listen to me, to help me. and i love the chk cucumber she cooked!! :) yummy!! and you know what, she even knows how to make duck rice! :) and shes a real optimistic person!

susu and velerie!!! ;) hey they rocks!

the brownie cake is so nice! :) you have to try to believe it!

hahaa the american's sliders is the 1st option when comes to lunch. thats why i need to jog//

those were the days where i thought i could stay for long.

simple yet genuine people. :) i never realised how good they are until i was abt to leave. i think thats how life is; playing a fool with us.

heyo! thats the cool shopping cart!! hahaha. my manager said for taller ppl they can only kick de cart..or else they have to bend v low to get hold of it. hahaha its meant for me! lol! jkjk

hey tats herman with his thumbs-up hair. :) one day, i will have the courage to bleah my hair.

g o o d bye dempsey.

2009-11-08T14:53:00.006+08:00

c h ec k s .

grinning from ear to ear

hahha im like some aunty taking photo of him after market-ing.

hello penguin!

my eyes are very hard to open. hhaha.

this is from topshop . we both think that Zara's is better :) and its $75!!!!!

good buy!!

2009-11-08T13:56:00.019+08:00

containing happiness

happy faces of the people :)))

yea im back to tp!! de salsa chk chop tasted the same as before even the aunty talked like before!

e hu b ing. seriously there was lack of activities . . .lol

see, besides the two of us, the dummies, there were another grp of girls behind us spending their time at the empty area/ lol there were 4 grps in total.

whee acca!

leap of faith

i wish to learn ballet LOL.

its e m o time!

hey this kid was very cute he pushed this cushion seat over from one end to another hahaha.

different effects. :)

collages save time and trigger creativity, brain exericise. lol.

n o longer de s am e .

2009-10-24T15:49:00.013+08:00

EAST COASTY

he hates to take pictures haha.

he just farted hahahaha.

trying to make me smile with teeth. =.=

its a windy good weather!

hahah he cycled most of the time while i was enjoying de breeze.

woo my butt pain. hahaha.

hello!!

yay my new nike shoes after 7 yrs of adidas!

woooo!! skiing seems fun!
got one angmoh fall into de water. HAHA.

this might be him. hahaha.

SEP T

2009-10-24T13:54:00.011+08:00

SEP T . SEPT.
friendships. cherish.

YO EDNA!!! hahah!

1st shot: too dark!!

2nd shot: edna says her face v big

3rd shot: i wanna laugh

4th shot: yay!

sorry its quite dark!!

we went 15 minutes and we shld have said we were laselle students to get the discount! HAHA. we are too honest. lol! it is a fab. place for friends to chill and unwind.

the food is NICE. ahhaha.

yay finally met up with kelvin. its been ard a yr since we have met up? haha. and one thing different about him was that, he didnt bring his LV BAG!! hhaha. its so not him to bring the white-colored bag. haha.

i had so much fun that we only left when the shop is closing. haha. lets meet up again!

Oh ya, maybe we might be starting up a coffee shop or something. HAHA. kidding.

hello!!! wanting andd desmond!! :)

my dempsey colleagues. they rocks!!

:)))

oh this is the place i usually do my eyebrow , erabelle.

i like my new eyebrow shape!:)

this is my 1st time eating SOUP SPOON. ok i know im quite a tortoise, but seriously the soup bowl is quite huge. !

de teddy bear reminds me of st. hahaa. its a pouch for HP!

WOO bakerzin!

my 1st time trying out de main course but we still prefer the cake than the food:)

thumbs uppp!

SEP T.

2009-10-16T21:32:00.006+08:00

when life is tough, remember to take a look around you. because there are people who are more unfortunate than you.

i guess, i can only think this way.

i pray hard that i will fall in love with the accounts job.
after hearing many stories about job hoppers, im really s-c-a-r-e-d. i need some positive stories to be injected into me. please kindly tell me if you have!

haha.

my brain became rusty after working there/

there was a meeting for jon today and seriously both of us forgot about it. suddenly the guests popped out from nowhere and we were seriously caught off guard.

i jus remembered myself walking and after i composed myself i said Hi and gave a firm handshake. it seemed that they were quite impressed however i guess i ruined it by saying what is it regarding and where you guys are from.

because i realised they are from _ _ the next moment from the files they were carrying.

I saw them in a bit of shock.

so i quickly led them outside and successfully changed topic by building up small talks. ( learned at ocbc)

hahaa yeah man they were so happy with me when i on the air-con and called the waiter to serve them drinks.

hahaha.

for a moment i wondered,
shld i be doing marketing job where i have more opp to meet ppl.

or shld i be doing what i was doing earlier on, to be in service industry.

im dumbfounded.

i know i shldnt pop this qn because it has no ans.

oh ya , and lastly, i took the bus at the wrong side and i landed myself up at hougang. im seriously l o st , am i.

realisation hit

2009-10-09T21:58:00.002+08:00

in l i fe,
theres something we have to let go.

friendship
i admit im not that kind of person who knows how to manage a friendship well. but i do try my best but maybe it doesnt seem i am making any effort.

sometimes we jus need to let something go, and move on from it. i realised, some friends can only be accquaintances; not more that that. some just look for you when they are bored, so they are not that kind of friend whom you can confide in. I never categorize my friends because i always thought if you are truthful to what you say, thats how a friendship bloom.

recently, i have seen a lot.

realisation hit me, i should know which kind of friend you can joke around with. Some are jus making use of you, some just want companionship, some are just plain KPO trying to gain attention with the information they get from you, some are just dumb gossipers!

haha. they will never stand in your shoes to think.

i have seen how competitive people are in order to gain advantage.
because they want both sides' attention, they speak different stories.

haha. very pathetic. well its human nature to be greedy isnt it? but seriously i have no intention to mix with people like that.

Like edna told me, you need to be bitchy in order to stay in marketing field. they can smile infront of you and probably backstab you at the back.

lol. I have enough of that. haha.

nevertheless, i have met a few gd friends in my company. and im glad to know them. :)
once they told me,

"always remember, we wont throw you there. we will be here."

when i was so panick as i saw the company shuttle bus zoomed past me that day. in the end the 3 of us took a cab back to office.

and the one i called gd friend, she didnt even bother to call and inform us that the bus is leaving. then she came and asked where did i go after i reached office.

i thought ths is a small issue. however, i never realised that from the start till now, maybe we can only be accquaintance. not more than that.

HI, BYE friend thats what its called.

GOOD BYE.
to those HI, BYE friends.

2009-10-03T22:45:00.015+08:00

XOXO

bringing out the kiddish side

hello dummmy! haha.

he doesnt like my blazing hot blazer haha but its nice hello! lol

YUMYUM:)

thats the thing about this cafe, inexpensive ingredients but they are able to charge higher than normal veg rice rate. haha.

he likes to go TOYSRAUS. seriously i always got problem spelling TOYSRAUS correctly. I have to look at the picture above to get it correct. haha!

oh ya, once he dropped his coin and it fall below the 'turn turn machine'! We went looking underneath it and tried to use newspaper to swap it out. Hahaa. actually it was me who wanted to get that coin out, he was like aiya nvm.

Then, I realised we can just pull the machine away! Its so LIGHT!!!! hahahaa. dumb us.

"ouch! my legs!"

ahahah. i dunno why i squeezed his legs.

alright here you go! full body picture of you! hahha. oh ya!! i heard spongebob is a gay??

st said this is the bimbo side of me. haha. where got! lol.

haahhaa. silly willy!

ok i know i seemed stiff! hahhah but i thought i was very relaxed then!

oh i like this! because you can learn pronounciation and play music with this toy!

random drawing while waiting for St ahah.

what do you think it is?

we think it looks like a wedding gown!

oh can i get married soon! hahah.

anything different? haha. they implanted few fake lashes for me!

lol. one thing good about t he company is, we always got to be their model for doing eyelashes, putting on eyeliner, threading, waxing and so on haha

hahaa. but i hate putting on eyeliner because i used an hr to remove the eyeliner that day!!!

b e s t i e

2009-10-03T12:23:00.003+08:00

jus met up with qiudan yst! woo!

i realised we have both became matured over the yrs! we have known each other for 7 yrs and counting! gosh! hahaha. its amazing!

this is a turning point for us; i know its gonna be a tough one but its definitely worth it! jiayou1

i hope we can still laugh freely as before! hahaha.

lets try other places for dinner someday!

2009-10-01T23:10:00.002+08:00

woo! haah

went waraku with my colleagues wanting and desmond for dinner! De pictures we took were quite funny! hahaha. shall post it up once i become more hardworking. i haven finished posting the august pictures yet!

ahah and valerie cooked packet maggie mee for me!! lols abalone maggie dun play play.! haha and peiying was saying why i know her for 2.5 yrs i don have! hhaaa. im quite touched! lol.

she will be leaving next week. I wish you all the best. :) (if you happen to see my blog haha)

yes then the girls came ask me whether i have eaten my lunch as i could only eat at 2 plus. haha. they are so nice!!! haaha. frankly speaking, i would like to stay in the company if the job scope is better.

i wonder will i get this kind of colleagues in my next job.

inside my heart, i hope that i can enter finance department.

But i don dare to carry too much hope on it. haha. like de saying says;

sigh. haha. im planning to take up a temp job 1st...lol. Its hard to find an acc job will no relevant exp and qualification.

its hard to make this turn. like a driver, im afraid i might lose control of the steering wheel.

Im afraid.

2009-09-26T19:11:00.011+08:00

A U G U ST
de moony/.

Lyna's birthday gathering! :)))

hahah i drew shitong!! HAHA looks like comic! lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY

Shitong!!! =))

hope you like the small surprise!

susu, amber and jolene haha. we are having our lunch under the tree! HAHA. DEMSEY!

DEMPSEY GREEN HOUSE

de moment i stepped in, i felt relaxed and at home. :) i love greenary!! the lighting is great hence speaks the good photos taken. I prefer 15mins food to barracks food.

haha i realised that fine dining isnt what i thought will be. Its not that the more expensive the food is, the nicer it is. hahaa. thats mine, the dumb-poor-kid thinking.

hes sulking because he doesnt like to take pictures. hahaha. SMILE, HONEY!!!! :)))))))))

Alright hes smiling! HAHA. =)) the food is o-kay! i still prefer other jap restuarant!

NEW YORK NEW YORK. haha. :)

2009-09-26T17:50:00.011+08:00

J u n e y Sentosa!
I miss my long hair
hahaha.

hahaha don kill me if you see this!!

on de way,

it was blazing hot!

hahah hello tourist!

See the orange flower on my head? hahah. i challenged him to pluck for me HAHA. and he said i always bully him . (refer to pic above) haha.

BYE SENTOSA! :)))
although it was very tired to keep walking n walking but we had fun acting like tourists!!

2009-09-24T15:30:00.002+08:00

i wonder how can ppl survive 10 yrs in the same company?

hahaha. oh man seriously i need to meet these ppl and learn the techniques from them. How did they do that! GOSH. hahaha. its unbelievable!

imagine they have to keep tolerating and tolerating, because they still meet the same ppl the same old problem, again. I guess they are numb to everything and thats the reason why they are able to do so. Or!! they have their family to think of. haha.

sometimes i wonder issit my fault that i cant stay long in a company. i feel really bad about myself. or rather i feel bad about myself these days.

do i give enough freedom to my boyfriend? am i a gd gf?

am i a gd daughter? or sibling?

below is the 7 secrets of success found in our room:
1. ceiling says: Aim high
2. fan says: Be cool
3. clock says: Every min is precious
4. mirror says: Reflect before you act
5. calender says: Be updated
7. door: Push hard to acheive your goals

hahah i like de fan man! BE COOL!

2009-09-22T22:54:00.002+08:00

T O L E R A N C E

to be able to withstand the shit work

office politics make it harder for me

love and care from some of my colleagues make it so hard for me to say goodbye hahahaha/sounds funny well im jus trying to fit in the letter 'L'

empathy for the boss

relationship with de ppl in the office

a meaningful job makes me stay

nice place

casual, relax

e money issue requires me not to leave

alright my brain is dying soon i feel// no longer as active as before makes me depressed// physically and mentally// help l e s s // can you feel the way i feel inside me// i longed for a good laugh//

2009-09-17T11:17:00.002+08:00

1. I've come to realize that my hair:
• is natural curl and im starting to be proud of it

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
• i feel happier haha

3. I've come to realize that all I really need:
• a holiday

4. I've come to realize that I've lost:
• my asthma laughter GOSH!

5. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
• people block my way and walking slowly

6. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk:
• i will get rashes haha

7. I've come to realize that money:
• is really important and yet is the root of all problems

8. I've come to realize that when I get old:
• i might get bald? LOL.

9. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
• young at heart HAHA.

10. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
• LOL.

11. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was:
• not many days ago

12. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
• is special hahaha cos few ppl have it

13. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
• i will always think tml is a weekend haha.

14. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night :
• i have to put on moisturer

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
• whether my boss gt anything for me to do

17. I've come to realize that my life:
• is fcuked up

18. I've come to realize that my favourite drink is:
• milo haha.

19. I've come to realize that today I will:
• screwed again

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
• be very tired

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
• be happier because weekend is coming

22. I've come to realize that I really want to:
• escape from all these, do something i like

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is:
• nobody is so boliao to do this. hahaha

24. I've come to realize relationships are:
• r.s is a responsibility

25. I've come to realize that love:
• is strong, it can either make or break a person

26. I've come to realize my best guy friend(s):
• is tzehui hahaha.

27. I've come to realize my best girl friend(s):
• is busy hahah

28. I've come to realize food is:
• heaven, helps me to de stress

29: I've come to realize that this summer:
• is horrible and im changing my mind; i'll not like summer as i do in de past

30. I've come to realize heartbreak is:
• driving ppl nuts

31. I've come to realize that the last person i liked:
• LOl my bf?

32.I've come to realize that my sister(s):
• hahaha.

33. I've come to realize that crying:
• is uncontrollable

34. I've come to realize that death:
• might be a solace

35. I've come to realize that if I'm sick:
• i can take mc woohoo. haha.

36. I've come to realize when I'm bored:
• i got no idea how i shld spend my time

hahah. its a lame post!

2009-09-15T11:31:00.003+08:00

take control

10 reasons why im happy:

1. i got a nice boyfriend! haha
2. jus bought a new pair of nike running shoes!
3. im having good hair days!
4. i got to save money as i can go my bf's house for dinner at times!
5. my boss is friendly
6. i can wear casually to work haha which helps in morning rush!
7. most of my colleagues speak mandarin hahaha yay!
8. i made a few nice colleagues!
9. im not late for work for quite many days hahaha
10. i got some savings! woo! haha!

i have to crack my brain to think of these reasons but sadly for unhappy reasons i guess i can jus type out unconsciously.

like, hey my neighbours at work speak super good english and i got a phobia to use the telephone next to me. haha. and oh man i cant click with them! One is angmoh!

lol anyway i have calculated another 4 more mths everything will be good =))))

2009-09-06T14:27:00.002+08:00

i know its childish

but i still wanna say it. why cant he jus leave me alone MONEY MONEY MONEY/ every sunday he is asking money from me . Can i ask you a question? Did your parents ask money from you for breakfast?

BREAKFAST!!!!

$10 for breakfast/ he claimed

and frankly speaking i din touch anything at home except apples and plain water. de rest are MINE. he keeps complaining saying he has to buy a lot of stuff. as if i din give him allowance. in total i gave my parents $300.

not enough?

HOW MUCH YOU WANT.

plus every $10 every wkend.

i told them i wanna study. Instead of lending me money (this has never crossed my mind), i have to pay this and that. LIKE JUS NOW, he asked me to pay $10 for the dinner later.

mum's hospitalisation fees, air con repair fees, whatever fees you can think of.

i have been thinking of wearing braces since secondary school, and i never got to wear them because im always saving up money for so many stuff like THOSE.

i saw my brother buying a pure white jap car, my sis doing expensive facials buying exp products. I feel really foolish. I shld have jus gone for what i want.

FED UP.

i think im jus too good to be bullied. WAKE UP.

2009-09-05T15:50:00.010+08:00

D r i nk s

met up with juliana yst and its been some time since i went back to 15 minutes; i like the food and ambience there, with yummy food like linguini and udon salad!!

man 1st time heard of udon salad? de sauce taste like miso soup! de only salad that i like in my entire life! because de veggy is not bitter and the sauce is great! its in the glass bottle and we have to shake it!

treat from juliana =) thank you!! i feel so bad. haha you are still studying!! shldnt waste this money ok! lol.

jul likes this because it got the fruity after taste. =) its nice! taste like my white tea! ahah

5 minutes?

nah its 15 minutes! haha. ok lame!

jul's friend joined in after we finished our dinner. haha hes chinese muslim!! He is a pure chinese but his religion is muslim. he needs to put muslim (for real) in his fb if not nobody will think its real! haha.

i started talking about names like, jul's bro Barry. Whats Barry's surname?

Straw.

Kay's surname?

Oh.

and one ah pek's name Ah Sai. (Ah shit) and another ah pek's name Lim Bei Song. (your dad is shiok)

hahaha. its a funny night with my lobster color face and lame jokes.

i was intending to get drunk though. hahah! so funny la!

have been feeling quite stressed up these few days, or wks? i dunno when it came actually.

work, colleagues, boyfriend, friends, family, money

at work i managed to control my emotions. i could still focus on my dumb jobscope and cracking lame jokes around and acting like a clown sometimes. But after that, i would break down and start emo ing.

or some words and actions would irritate me easily. I hate myself like this.

How to suppress your emotions in front of others.

maybe i should get this book.

2009-08-29T17:25:00.003+08:00

THE PROPOSAL

its de kind of movie i'll like because its funny and something thats not too taxing on my brain haha

unlike DISTRICT 9

hey im actually anticipating DISTRICT ten to be out gosh! hahaha my eyes were practically glued on the big screen and seriously de aliens are so innocent! haha its the humans who are making trouble i feel. i wanna board de mothership!!

hahaha.

oh we caught THE HANGOVER, its good for those who jus want to have a big laugh. De asian naked guy is very funny!

what do you think life is now?

i always feel tt we shld do something we like, otherwise its meaningless. But now, a yr after i graduated from my dip, i realied thats just a dream.

haha. yea ppl will say then just go for ur dream. But when you thought you have captured your dream job, it turned out to something that you don want. there are a lot of sacrifices to be made and you will start to think whether its worth it.

haha whats your take?

go for it?

or not?

2009-08-23T15:31:00.009+08:00

remember remember
Remember the time

hey!! yay finally got to shop with my sis haha though we live under the same roof but its been months since we went out together again. hahaha.

she is the one who taught me to take pictures at every outing (that pisses off my boyfriend, because hes camera shy) and how to use the correct angle to take a good picture. haha. shes really good at it and she never fails to fish out her red camera when we got nothing better to do!

haha. i really got a lot of pictures to upload thanks to the taking-pic-at-every-outing spirit.

im thinking of changing to livejournal because a change might be good! a new chapter of my life. lol im 21 already gosh!!! but because of the pictures and memories of this blogspot i cant bear to change it. haha.

i was browsing through my old notebook and i saw a lot of funny stuff like, 'jog jog jog', 'apply for mc', 'withdraw money' etc. lols!!! withdraw money also need to jot down!! wheres my brain! haha and i like this out of the quotes i had written down, 'Do something worth remembering.' elvis presley. though its a simple sentence, it hit me deeply.

have you done anything which worth remembering?

suddenly my mind is blank. haha. gosh! im gg to do something about it!

a big thankyou to you who have wished me! greatly appreciate it!! they meant a lot to me because they really remember the date. I always have de habit of posting de wrong birth date online. LOL. so sometimes my friends wish me on the wrong date. haha. so im really touched!

my colleagues bought me a wallet on that day and that really surprised me because we only knew for a month? and they r so thoughtful! i always use my hp pouch as wallet so they bought a real wallet for me. lol

and of cos my boyfriend!! honey bought me de $150 nike vouchers, color pens (de colors r all so nice!! don bear to use yet!) and a dress! haha he wanna buy running shoes for me to encourage me to exercise. lol. he says im fat!! alright alright i admit ok. thats really thoughtful for him too! he knows that my running shoes are basicially not for human wear anymore. (they have followed me since sec 2) haha. oh yea we watched de proposal that day!! its funny!

qiudan treated me at a japanese restaurant and we had hokkaido ice cream for dessert!! both are my favourites! hahaha though its a simple dinner but it doesnt matter! well i have to bring out de old saying again, 'its de thought that counts!'.

wooo. and my sis! she bought me my favourite colored leggings! hahaha. its blue in color! and she wanna buy me a $60 shoes!!! (shared with my bro of cos) BUT!!! all de smaller sizes are GONE/

lol so im waiting for my 4th angbao from my brother and his gf. hahahah=D

2009-08-20T18:14:00.003+08:00

hello! im in de office, trying to find things to do.

haha. i realised that using my brain is not killing my brain cells, but stoning infront of the computer does.

i dunno how do ppl live with this kind of life. wth! haha.

its bad for health

2009-08-15T00:11:00.004+08:00

AUGUST
caught off guard

HELLO! its August already! Time is really zooming past very quickly! so fast so furious! hahaa haven finish uploading pictures for June and July!!!

hahaha when i was browsing through the pictures, i realised i went to a lot of places, eaten alot of nice and yummy food, had so much fun!

i hate to collage sometimes because i wanna comment on every picture!! but its really slow if i upload every single picture. haha. lifes contradicting sometimes, you know that!

m having computer phobia, imagine staying infront of the com the whole day at work!!! gosh! its killing me and my eyes. haha. so basically i don touch the computer, book or anything that needs eye power. haha. i even stopped playing my shoduko on train.

and i often look outside at the greenery. haha. so funny la, always got caught by the people asking, 'i dunno theres a toilet here!' , 'wa you are here!'

lol theres no toilet la hahaaa used to have. like im doing some stuff discreetly. lols! hey im jus taking a breath alright! thats my secret little place.

im chained in.

like a bird.

the gates are tightly

closed.

the wide blue sky

is out of reach.

2009-08-02T01:13:00.001+08:00

The only man who is really free is the one who can turn down an invitation to dinner without giving an excuse. Jules Renard

i hope i can be a free man. life is made complicated because of human's emotions. but without emotions life become meaningless and dull. i guess thats what life is about.

maybe im not borned to be a social butterfly maybe im jus a frog in de well. i realised there r so many things that i dont know; its hard to join in others conversation sometimes.

will i be changed to someone i dont know as time passes by. i wonder.

sometimes i can feel myself becoming a less chatty person. i don know when is the last time i have a big laugh over something. i still want to be the old self. it scares me to even think of de changes i have made over de years.

my skin problem is making me having sleepless nights. and i always have to do stretching before i can rest on my back. i need to save up too.

i got many things that i wanna do; like doing braces. i have been thinking of tt since secondary school days. its like a dream for me. haha. i wonder when can i fufill this dream. i bet my dad will be screaming if he hears that.

i envy those who have no financial worries. i always tell myself that its a challenge for me to make me become a stronger person.

well. its time to plan for more things. i will be stronger as ever.

after thoughts

2009-07-26T14:04:00.002+08:00

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

-Maria Robinson on letting go of the past and moving forward

You don't drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there.

***

even if we made de wrong choice in de past, its impossible for us to turn back de time. but we have a choice to make another decision to make it right again. i'll never give up hope i'll keep trying! a mistake is not a mistake unless it cant be put right.

on a lighter note,

my blog is gg to have more photos of other characters besides my boyfriend and me. HAHA. :)

fifteen minutes' is a nice pub restaurant with yummy food and the fries are specially seasoned! i feel that its even better than the fries we had at demsey's rest!

more updates later! yay im gg for badminton session with lirong!! excited* gotta burn my yst dinner later!

2009-07-25T16:44:00.027+08:00

froggy july

haha we did the collage for monday class! the frog's eyes are made of the Goggles from magazine haha so creative la st!

de kids were very excited when they saw us playing de aeroplanes. i admit i really dunno hw to fold a good one! hahaha. st gave me his plane. HAHA.

we made payment ourselves through this machine. i was wondering could we walk out of the cold storage without paying. hahaha. you can try and tell me!

hes totally obsessed with orange juice! hey it shld be orangesoda. HAHAHA. kidding la. he can drink two huge carton a day. v scary.

hello! we are at the musuem!! :)

lets go! :)

i like de display below! gosh! so nice! haha.

1st Stop :)

de banana boat sseems fun.

test qn: how many seats are there?

theres a play room there!! hahaa we went in to play with the funny looking plastic bag tied with our feet. haha. i had fun climbing here and there. i miss the days where we played 'no touching' at the playground. it means we cant touch de ground if not we are disqualified from the 'catching' game. haha.

below is the funny looking plastic bag haha.

hongkong cafe near paradis center. haha. the chicken noodles is NICE!! :)

we went in to see the history of Singapore too. i got headache after listening to the ear phone provided (the lime green one) haha

yay it was dinner time and we had sushi tei @ paragon! :))

Dinner @SHODUKO the other day :)

WARAKU!! :) we got $12 vouchers!! :)

my big small eyes. =( im becoming old lady under the influence of st. HAHA. kidding!

2009-07-22T21:38:00.005+08:00

HELLO!

was really thrilled to see you this morning! haha i know you were tired!! and it was raining so heavily!! gosh im really really happy! and HAPPY 5th month honey!! we broke de spell! hahaha.

de rest shall only be revealed in the email! go check your mail!! hahaha.

woots its been 3 days and i have survived from this desk job. seriously i hate to come online now because i have to stare into the computer for the whole day! and i hate it because my eyesight will get worse!! hahaha. so why am i online?

because my dad is really driving me nuts seriously. he asked me to type a resignation letter for him. its like a nightmare for me, do you think i will have the heart to type it.

though i jus need to key in 'resignation letter template' at yahoo search.

my GM was testing my power of language these few days. Frankly speaking, im really terrified. haha. he asked me to write a letter to The Attorney.

i was tasked to do a write up for the managers in de co. it was quite interesting to know how the managers made it to the top.

realisation struck only today that A paper is very important. Because de salary difference is really big.

so yea de more i see that the more i feel like taking up a degree asap. However, some made it to the managerial post with a diploma too.

In the beginning, im like HUH? i don even know them how can i do a write up about them??

There are files given to me and as i flip through there was another question mark in my head. How am i supposed to write with only the MCs attached? hahaha.

luckily there is evaluation feedback form in there!!! haha. actually im quite smart. HAHA.

the GM was like, oh ok continue to write for the rest of the people.

phew, so scary la!

den i was wondering, hey i din apply for type writer post!

but that was a fresh experience for me! im learning more things.

hes on leave tml and fri!! yea! time to create havoc ! HAHA. jkjk. i think i will be very hardworking. i have to be more slack!! hahaha im jus too serious about work. Zzz. i hate myself sometimes. lol.

come msn!! i will b there i think! haha.

today i was searching up and down for ppl to tok to! HAHA. wow 1st time in my working life im actually finding ppl to tok to. even my GM is on msn!!

and almost everyone is de co is on msn!!! i dunno y some ppl can stare into the com de whole day! i cant!! haha.

The best thing is sometimes i can have 1and half hr break! HAHA. :) yeahooo! and some of the colleagues are really funny!! i will try to open up!! i dunno why i feel so shy when i 1st step into a new environment. hahaa. later they will know!!

2009-07-19T19:59:00.015+08:00

Shin Kushiya

yummmmyyy! thumbs up!

i miss the food! haha the colours and presentation of the food already enticed me to pick up my chopstick!

de food was nice but the only bad thing was tt all the stuff were standing very near to us, talking among themselves. i know that they were trying to be attentive but they were making me very uncomfortable!! the dining experience was a bit spoilt by them.

haha thats shitong's drawing! very nice! i forgot to take de picture of it. haha. i drew too! but mine is like very kiddy besides his drawing. LOL. what do you expect! hes an artist!! hahaha. i see my drawing and his i wanna laugh lol.

super detailed. nothing escaped those eyes of an artist.

de ghost of you n me.
haha.

hello! we went yck for badminton match! i like yck! because it makes me feel so sporty! with tennis courts, swimming facility, gym and badminton court! i like de smell of sea waters and swimming pool waters! haha i know im quite werid. but de smell makes me feel very relaxed. haha.

we became the chilling couple that day.

haha so funny, our 1st time spending money on coffee club.

and we ordered anything but coffee! HAHA. thats de reason y we seldom chill there.
and i think we still prefer to chill out with a grp of friends instead. lol.

this drawing is unfinished. haha.

its pretty alike! jus that de angle im taking the picture is abit diff from the angle hes drawing from!

yay! shokudo! the ambience is not bad! jus that the food is quite normal. haha. :)

J . U . N.E :)

de blogger bug is

2009-07-18T13:12:00.003+08:00

BACK

helllo! hahaha im back! im working next monday! i really hope i can be stronger this time round! work comes with complaning! so i will start blogging again! hahaa.

met up with qiudan and tzehui this wk! its a fulfilling wk! haha its like finally after donkey yrs! everyone has their own worries and i really hope that things will work out well for everyone!

i feel like learning cantonese!! lols i dunno why! imagine, a grp of friends toking in cantonese! hey nobody will know waht we are toking abt! (jus like i dunno waht they r talking)

haha i feel quite demoralised because i become fat. u wont recognise me anymore. hahaha jus kidding. i need to exercise! maybe im planning to take up yoga again soon! but my working hrs is quite like shit. and late dinners = fats. they say dinner after 7pm cause ppl to get fat.

mayb i shld eat dinner box ! HAHA. bring 'lunch box' to work! maybe once a wk!

2009-07-05T14:21:00.002+08:00

hello!

it feels like ages since i logged in to blogger. i almost forget my password. haha.

i became a full time interviewee after i left my job in june. the process of finding jobs is not as difficult as deciding which career path i shld embark on.

besides having to convince myself, i have to convince the interviewer, my dad and the people around me that, i would like to have a change in line. u know, sometimes its so hard to convince myself when I stumbered on the obstacles.

Cases like, no replies no calls after sending almost 100 over resumes. I know that its really tough to find that job without any related qualification. Getting screwed up by the interviewers. Those looks that 'say aiya dunno what you want la' can kill.

This period is the worse time of my life. i never felt so out-of-control before. I have been making decisions when i was a kid, everything was properly placed.

My dad said that i have wasted my diploma. you shld have studied accountancy instead! so stupid of you. i felt like saying, hey its not as if you paid for my school fees.

Jus when i needed some moral support, I got nothing but these comments. Im not as strong as I appear. I have never been that afraid before. I made a promise to my dad that I will find a job, and I have to make sure that I wont quit this time.

sometimes im hardly breathing.

i couldnt imagine i had to go back as a part time promotor again. haha. its really like an insult to me. but luckily I was not really that pessimistic, or else i think i might sink into depression or something.

and thats because i have those special ppl by my side. a big thankyou to my godma my bf n my twin! haha thankyou. :)

2009-06-21T15:08:00.002+08:00

can i go back to the good old days

im losing directions in life, hope not

im going to give it a try.

sometimes i look into the mirror,

but i cant find myself anymore.

2009-06-14T17:02:00.009+08:00

M A Y ;

"its easy to fall in love, but its special to stay in love."

Thankyou, my boyfriend! :)

hot hot drum @ cine! haha its spicy level is 5/5!! Nike becomes our favourite brand for May. I got a top and water bottle and he got a nike tee haha. I requested him to do the stupid faces! hahaha. don kill me pls!! you look cute! hahaha.
getting bored of him? hahaa there are more below!! i went through the pictures and omg!!! 90% of the pictures are HIM! haha where am i!! im training him to a camera-shy guy to someone who is ever-ready for the shot hahaha

yay!! i like the FOOD. but wheres the main lead in this picture!! hahaha. its in his handphone!! You can go at lunch time because its cheaper! The quality of food is really good!! :) We agreed that its one of the best japanese restaurants we have been to. SHIN KUSHIYA thumbs up!!:)

chicago steak's house! but we were not ordering any steaks. aahha. the chicken is nice!!!! :) im going to try the steak since the chicken is already so yummy! hahaha. its having discounts too! :)
de service is GOOD too! :)

hey we came to great world city, a place i wont go because its quite out of reach and i got lost while getting the Zara pants once! hahaa but its really nice to return to that place with st:) because i didnt have to worry about getting lost or whether we can get the movie tickets on time. he had it all planned! thankyou thankyou! Monopoly is his favourite boardgame!! HAHA. its time to save up!! every cent counts now! hahaa!

Ding tai feng! this was the 1st time st went to DTF. the pork chop fried rice with peppery taste is the BEST! well of course we couldnt miss the signature xiao long bao. haha. his kids say he looks like a monkey. hahaa. don strangle me!!

hello june!

2009-06-14T16:11:00.008+08:00

battling with emotions,

its definitely becoming my forte.

i have become quite emotional these few ~~days~~ weeks, which makes my life upside down. basically i have been living a rollercoaster-ride-life. Sometimes i feel like im in a battle where nobody knows when it will eventually come to cease.

its a terrifying feeling because you cant prepare if you dont know whats coming. they say, 'you never need to know whats your goal in life, you just need to know what you are going to do next.' REALLY? hahaa. i read this from sophie kinsella's collection.

i feel connected to the story because its as if im the lawyer-turning-to-domestic helper, who is not sure of her goal in life. should she return to her lawyer job , where she earns $500 per hr, burns her weekends and holidays off because of work, basically she got no life! or leads a simple yet fullfilling life where she earns $500 per month.

this is like crazy!! hahha. it really makes me having second thoughts about having an events job. Because it means no day and no night if there are endless events going on!

Will i become like her one day. Sacrificing her youth n life? the time can never return. the time you have lost.

Im thinking of a secretariel job, but will I be happy working as a secretary de rest of my life? having to do work that your boss detest, doing a servant's job. my brother said. Will you be happy, serving your boss like a servant after studying so hard for your diploma?

i was like yes! why not! hahaha. they earn quite a bit!

and he was like, rolling his eyes away.

but on a second thought, i don think my character suits that position. hey im smart ok! how can i jus waste my talent!! I might be the boss one day! ahaha.

What do you think?

its really hard to make decisions in life. maybe because everyone hopes for the best? But im slowly realising theres no best deal in life.

i will get through

2009-06-09T21:04:00.010+08:00

good morning

clock: 9:45am

had breakfast at mac, it might be a simple luxury if you are working your ass off @9:45am in de morning. so i thought. haha.

clock: 10:30am

i was already bored of reading, de undomestic goddess is not goddess anymore. maybe a change of location would be good so i ran off and proceeded to de library.

yea of course i couldnt take shots of the library because it was so quiet on de 2nd floor! but there was an uncle who kept complaining about his life. believe me, i felt like telling him hey uncle!!! this is library not coffeeshop!! sigh, he jus wanted to enjoy de air con i guess. yea so came another uncle who seemed mentally unsound! he kept looking at me!! so scary! so i changed to another place, here came the Loud aunty and family. hello! this is library!! i still remember getting scolded by the librarian when i was a kid. hahaha. wats the librarian doing now they are getting more lenient!! which is good if im with my friends haha. but sadly, i was all alone by myself.

clock: 11:30am

so i went to ntuc. hey what can you expect from bedok? haha ntuc is the biggest air-conditioned 'mall' in bedok! haha. two-storeyed somemore! hahaa. yup so i almost surveryed all the stuff from snacks, drinks, sweets, stationery, toys, drinking containers, to detergent shampoo except de raw stuff to say exactly. yay. i had spent another 40mins. it was time to meet st! :)

i bought st's all-time-favourite!

clock: 12:10pm

i saw a queue at Mr Bean, haha so i joined in the q too!

i walked to de mrt station, using the longest route. haha.

yay i reached! and i was sucking the soy bean quickly because there was a row of China ppl sitting there like immigrants! gosh! i prefer a group of singapore sch kids!

clock: 12:30pm

i left after the quick shot. and de moment i went up de stairs to de escalator, my eyes matched the ah ma's eyes. i always see her every morning @ around 8plus am when i was rushing to work. i told myself that one day one day i will donate to her. haha.

so since i had de time nw, i should do it now! so i went up to her (she was wearing those tweety bird ah ma's glasses) and looked at what she was selling. booklets? did i see wrongly? it seemed like those church pamplets. haha. anyway i told her im giving her $2 and she was like, Why not give me $5? she showed her five fingers to me.

i was like wow!! still can argue the price?? haha i was completely stunned. so we began negiotiating in de middle of nowhere, i felt like i was extorting money from her la!! haha so i asked her whether she gt $8 cos i only gt $10 if she wanted. She said, yes.

yea i guess i was the gullible one cos she gt tricks up! she took it and said, i gave you back $2. woww. sudddenly i felt she was the most clever person, feigning innocence! i was er, noo sorry i don have much money left. I even need to say in my super 'guai guai girl' tone.

haha so finally after a few lies from her, i got back my $8!! she lied to me tt she don have $8!

phew. i was so happy yet felt like shit. hahaha. because i was alrd not feeling well, and the flu and hot weather were not helping! and so funny la, i couldnt find my tissue so i was quite paiseh because an aunty saw me sneezing with my mucus flying. HAHA. so funny. and i was digging my tissue away at the ice cream compartment, placing my purchases on de ice cream boxes. hahaa. it was so unglam la hahaa luckily i didnt bump into anyone!! (finger crossed) hahaha

de stupid day ended well with st's accompany. yeahoo! :) its good to have him with me:)

love story

2009-06-07T17:15:00.002+08:00

"marry me......this love is difficult but its real"

hahaha you and your funny singing!

2009-06-07T12:00:00.012+08:00

movies with St
wow i cant imagine i have watched so many movies! haha i watched less than 5 movies a yr in de past!

hahah watched this lame movie yesterday and their conversations were quite funny lols guys are selfish! LOL. this is the morale of the story. hahah jus kidding! we love BOB! hes so funny. "if you wanna touch her, you have to GO through me" hahaha so funny cos hes a jelly jelly stuff of cos the enemy can go through him easily. dunno wat i mean? haha den u have to watch it! lol and his girlfriend is the green color jelly with 14 pineapples. (which is a lifeless object)

wooo! its interesting but seriously i was not paying attention to the 1st part it was quite boring. i nearly fall asleep. HAHA partly was because of de martell. but after that came de exciting part and i was completely sober. hahaha.

wolverine! haha yea its nice! his brother is scary! hahaha im so looking forward to de next movie!

yea taken! its thrilling and fast-paced and i like it! hahha though im quite worried at the thought of going europe now! but it also meant de movie successfully grabbed my attention and had a impact on me! hhaa yea its about americans girls who got kidnapped at europe and were forced to become prositutes. they were fed with drugs initially and were raped by the bad thugs! so scary!! haha this father of the american girl (de guy in the poster) came to rescue her daughter and he is so cool! lol my eyes were glued to the screen!

yay its the confessions of a shopaholic! i love the story! hahah it makes me feel that nothing is to be worried about because we will get through somehow. lol. good and bad. but i prefer to look at the brighter side! its funny and made me feel relaxed. if you wanna have a good laugh, you should go for this movie! :) thumbs up up!

Detroit Metal City its the hardest movie to find on web! haha i keyed in DMC, DCM also don have the movie results! in the end i have to go to japanese movie website and search hahah. it seems tt its not tt popular haha but its o-kay. the male lead is quite funny with his voice and singing but scary with his scary makeup! hes the guy who acted in deathnote!! 'L' desu! i prefer him as L though. hahaa.

marley & me. haha the dog is so cute that i wanna bring him home lol i cant forget the scene where marley tried to walk with one leg when the car is moving! hahah so funny! and of cos de time when he is old and ill. haha its a simple yet heartwarming story!

haha this is alright but i prefer a more fast-paced story! haha its abit draggy to me! 3hrs gosh!

yrrep derf

2009-06-03T17:10:00.005+08:00

FRED PERRY

hello my 1st fred perry!

my friends were telling me to paint on de logo so it can be seen clearer hahahha. we were like ya hor! lol. but after a spilt seconds, we were like, hey then ppl will think its a fake fred perry!

haha aiya nvm! i still love my shoes! hahaa its from st!! :) thankyou thankyou!:)

im sorry for my pms ing!

i will be BACK!

2009-05-31T20:31:00.006+08:00

hmm getting so touchy these few weeks haha partly is because of de crazily hot weather oh man i took a quiz on facebook and it says summer is not for me. hell yea!! hahaa. i got pissed off by the people who blocked my way early in de morning when i was rushing to work (i was late for few wks alrd!!), people who rudely walked in a way where i had to walked on the grass, stupid customer who scolded me when i was trying my best to help and all.

my skin problems are getting on my nerves too, there were scars on my ears, legs and arms. i wish to take a plane to Iceland!!!!

my dad was saying, you are always outside and you only spend a few hrs a day at home. so yst i was back home early after work, but still he continued to nag and said things which i think its absurd. and he even wanted to nag me to bathe!!

he never fails to make my day bad. I feel like telling him, its you who makes me feel like leaving this home forever.

my friends were telling me their parents wanted to write a letter to cpf to request them to waive off the educational loan fees. and my mum was like hey you can slowly pay back i don need de money soon, so stupid of you to pay the lump sum back.

i feel like escaping to somewhere where i can live in peace.

i have to visit my godparents twice a wk, because they don live together. i cant even stay at hm peacefully and rest for a day. sigh. i think its really hard to be a good girl , friend and colleague.

during work, i have to give in to my collleagues. sometimes i really don wish to fight among them, so everytime i have to sacrifice myself. even when i eat, i have to ask them whether they wanna eat 1st or not.

i went to my godma's house today and she wanted me to teach de maid how to use my old sony eric phone. this phone was actually given to my godpa because he said he likes it. and i can choose not to give up my phone because i still like my old hp.

frankly, although i said its ok nvm and everything, i felt like...zzzz.

de maid is so lucky, somehow i believe that if u prayed enough you will get everything you want. she is a christian and she always prays. yea she wanted a hp and she got it! wow!! haha i rem a christian friend telling me, whatever conditions she wanted for a job, she got it!! and she was 52 when she was out of job.

yea. and my godparents are the best employers ever ok. they let the maid eat before everyone does, they gave her a lot of stuff including my cute hp, they gave her big angbaos!, they let her off to go out with her friends and go church on sunday. its like wth!! hahaha. better life than me man! lol. and she gt a haircut every month!!! and and my godpa gave her a golden ring to make her happy. i don even have a ring!!! haha.

maybe her prayers really work?

its a bit crazy to think that way. haha scary too! lol imagine whatever u want, u got it! despite being incapable and all.

hmm i think i really need a break/

2009-05-27T20:42:00.043+08:00

trip to singapore art museum

;) go!

blueberry muffin baked by him! :)

hahaa. i like this kinda architecture.

i like de tree!! LOL.

he was asking why i took this picture instead of the jesus statue which he thought was nice. hahaah i don like that statue!

here we gooo!

my first time stepping into de arts museum after donkey yrs ago

view from the museum i think its quite nice!

there is not a single soul not to mention a q!! haha

too bored hahaa.

black & white :)

i can only take pictures in de washroom

see, i told y ou.

its a totally different experience for me because i always go to familar places like orchard and so on. so yea i felt good!! at least i know another thing now hahah. sounds like a mountain turtle but i will conquer all de museums!! HAhaa.

bye sam :)
proceeding to SUN Japanese Restaurant!! :)

excited*

irashaimasay! lolss i forgot how to spell!

:) very headache because everything seemed nice!!

1 hr past...

and my eyes set on this, 'BEAUTY POT'. hahaha.

it solved my fickle-minded ness.

:) its a nice place to dine in, very comfortable seats!

retard face!!

my uncooked beauty pot

we almost got killed because we were too excited to get pretty!! its still raw!!!

:) waiting patiently

hello honey! :)

yummyyyyy chk rice!! :)

it can be used for 3 days and its transferable!!! not bad eh! hahaa

satisfied :)

byebye :)

while waiting..hahaah its been quite some time since i self take!!

honey's favourite HAhaa. cereals!! hes a big BABY.

it took us ages to decide which to buy hahaha stop producing so many types pls! hahaa.

hahaa with his fav milk tea in hand! hes so cute la! hahaha.

2009-05-27T20:31:00.004+08:00

Its silk screening time! :)
de 1st piece was painted by my boyfriend haha

In progress..

hahaha because my hands were dirty so i couldnt take pictures for the whole process!! Skipping to the end product!

LOL process is more important!! HAHA. its really fun!

2009-05-27T20:19:00.001+08:00

hello!!! :)

2009-05-18T23:36:00.004+08:00

honey is so funny.

st:
when u row ur eye balls at me
*lol

hey!! i never know i can roll my eyes and the worst thing is i dunno my eyes are boats hahaha. he never fails to cheer me up! hahaha. iloveyou.

o m g

2009-05-14T22:35:00.002+08:00

i looked at the letter again and again, " Please complete and return your .....to deduct a monthly instalment rate of $102 to repay your education loan...."

Im sure they sent to the wrong person, i never had an education loan!! But second thought, yes maybe i have. argg. my gosh, i look at the familar giro form that the customers always bring to me at work, now its my turn.

sigh, jus when i decided to take up SIM this red letter came unknowingly. no more shoppings (anyway i seldom shop alrd), no more expensive dinners (anyway im planning to hit 44kg), no more dying of hair (anyway black-colored hair is more authentic). haha ALRIGHTY, i need to learn to take up more responsibilities; its my own education loan!

hmm yea, i can make it!! haha jus need a weekend job after i quit my job. arg, im a timid cat when comes to telling my boss about my resignation. haha. because its kinda last minute, but I jus knew it recently too!! cant blame me ya! haha. pls dont!!

actually i do feel guilty, but i cant be soft hearted this time. when i feel like an useless staff at work, I got 100% motivation to tell my boss. But i dunno whether i got de courage when come to face-to-face.

haha. jus do it jus do it. it cant be wrong, i keep reminding myself. lend me your courage!! haha.

im quite worried at the thought of entering student's life once again. really. i really hope everything goes on smoothly.

support me alright! =)

2009-05-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

我知道

2009-05-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

it jus takes one day to fall apart.

april ing

2009-05-10T12:35:00.025+08:00

1st month anniversary!
hello boy! thankyou!:)

bamboo unagi &

chawanmushi
fresh yy!!

omu rice & chk chop? haha.

don be deceived by the simple waffle below, its super nicee!!! :)

go try it!

haha he said hes gg to cry after eating this lol!

its @ shokudo

raffles city basement

i was so happy with the food and everything! hahaa thankyou boyfriend!

we toured the whole place and it seemed that everything was so yummy!! so difficult to decide man! hahaa but it was a fun experience! its like a more high class pasar malam. haha like marche. de cleaner aunty was very proactive! de moment we came back, our empty plates were cleared. hahaa. yup good service!! :)

what if i cut my hair short? hahaa.

im satisfied! :)

homie breakfast! :)

by: my boyfriend

angmokio h u b i n g :)

towning mos
laughters. kino. artfriend. zara. cold storage.

:) :) :)

one last look,

before i cut my hair short haha

Hainan street
海南街

haha this was my first time gg to hainan street in fact i didnt know abt this place's existence until shitong mentioned. haha. why theres no hokkien street? lol. they said that hainese is good at F&b industry actually thats quite true!! haha st's uncle is a chef and my colleagues' uncles owe a few restaurants. hahaa. anymore? tag!

actually i love chinese cuisine too! haha i don mind gg any place with nice food! and it was a different kind of feeling gg to places undiscovered haha sometimes its boringg to eat at the same old restaurants like waraku shokudo lol.

lets go explore more places!

thats me

2009-05-09T13:19:00.005+08:00

a year ago. haha.

sometimes i wish i can go back to the past;

haha but the past is gone, so the more we need to catch hold of the future. :)

been having too much fun and good food that i have no time to go online! haha. in fact i feel that sunday is always a day which i don go out. lol.

although it seems that time is never enough but im really enjoying every second of it. haha.

my yoga lessons finally ended and i can finally wake up late on sunday mornings. imagine i only have sunday where i can sleep late!! ARG i really miss those days where breakfast was right infront of me after i brushed my teeth and followed by a series of hongkong drama on scv.

yipeee i can do that for TML and for the NEXT SUNDAY AND NEXT NEXT SUNDAYS. hahaa.

but the worst thing is i have to keep pushing myself to do yoga at hm which is A BIT difficult because.. who would do yoga when u have the time! hahaa u would be busy gg out with friends, eating, sleeping, gg online. YA? hahah.

and i really need to exercise haha feel like playing badminton! ok ok i have been saying de same stuff i realised hahaa its getting boringg hmm blogging is quite boringg lol .

JUICY UPDATES*
will be up soon. hahaa. stay tune!

heyhey

2009-05-02T16:27:00.003+08:00

i miss my long hair! hahaa. thats the picture before i cut my hair to shoulder length.

met qiudan at bedok jus now the weather is super duper hot!! can kill really!! especially when u are wearing jeans!!! my legs were burning! hahaa it seemed that the sun rays would penetrate into de jeans.

finally had mee goreng at sega after so long! hahaa. suddenly missed those days. de trip to the library was a fruitful one, we found a lot of comedy love detective novels! hahaa. so happy. and we went to watson our favourite shopping corner HAHA. so funny la WATSONS. yes you see correctly. we would always spend at least 15 to 30mins in de store thinking of which to buy, it seems that we need everything in the store. lol. sometimes 1 hr!! hahaha if the store is bigger.

hahha. yea sometimes its the person whom you are shopping with makes the whole experience fun; it can even happen at watsons!! LOL.

im gg to write a list of hot places we can go to boyfriend! hahaa.

after so long

2009-05-01T09:06:00.002+08:00

i decided to type something to vent my emotions; so beware if you were to continue reading. hahaha. don worry im not that emo! lol.

i think i have been too nice at my workplace that everyone would step all over me. thats the contradicting part, ppl tend to help u if u are nice, but they tend to push their luck too!! yea man, there is a 'notice' on our notice board. "The staff don need physicial exercise because they are doing exercises below: 'Backstabbing, pushing their luck, running down their boss's neck, etc'.

haha no wonder i haven slim down!! i haven been doing all those!!

towards customers, of cos i need to be professional nice and helpful. so usually i cant vent anger on any of them. towards colleagues, because i would need their help and to make my life easier at work, i need to give in to them.

somehow, that might be the reason why i got easily irritated by my family.

its not easy to always being so nice letting ppl taking advantage of me and smile after that.

i m sick of seeing the ulgy side of people; but thats life, we bound to see this kind of ppl. When i see horrible ppl who are devoted christians/buddhists, i wonder are they supposed to be taught to be nice? or at least not being bad to others? or wat did they learn actually?

i wonder la. but their actions are definitely below my expectation, sad to say.

haha ok enough of my rantings!

i jus got a pair of fred perry canvas from st! =) hahaha and i got myself a new bag!! =) its also nice to shop when you are stressful!! even if you dunno wat to buy, just buy anything because it will make u feel better i realised. hahaha. i bought a cute notebk at $1.50 (its on sale) yst ! haha.

i hope i can defer my admission to SIm because i guess i need to earn more money or else i will be so insecured! Please let me defer!!

so afraid

2009-04-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

she doesnt know how long she can withstand the rantings mixed emotions different perspectives

her parents never hear her

never will they ever would

all they care about is their own thinking

they thought its good for her

but never did they ask

what kind of life does she want

what makes her happy

she keeps feeling guilty and telling herself they meant good

yea yea yea

is this how you love someone?

if its like this,

she doesnt need the love.

n umber nine

2009-04-12T15:39:00.019+08:00

hey!

great food& laughters :)

march 2009.

hahaa. we had fun!

de icecream is the nicest of all! green tea and red bean should fall in love, they are the best combination for dessert! hahaha.

smiley qiudan!

creativity revealed.

a BIG thankyou to you mr. !

its always nice to have you around!

hahaa:)

family's bbq!! :) the food was great and i was happily being fed by the ppl there! hahaa. his parents were so steady pom pi pi they played 'heart attack' with all of us hahah.

i felt bad because the 1st time i hit uncle, 2nd time i hit aunty. ahhahaha. i slapped quite hard. thats the feedback from st's sis. hahaha. opps. but i guess everyone enjoyed the game!! :)

truth or dare? uncle?
truth.
what do you like abt aunty?
我喜欢她走路的时候。
(we burst out laughing)

uncle is so cute.
haha i feel that his family is fun loving and real.
i had lotsa fun!

haha busy bbq ing for me mr chef!

there are sotong, satays crab meat hot dogs but de marsh mellow is de the highlight of the night.
haha we were busy making de marsh mellow puff up like a bun. its really yummy!

i was busy taking pictures the whole night. hahaa. i like to be a cameraman!

hahaa very hardworking there mr. !

i love salmon and you! hahaa.

hellos

2009-04-12T15:16:00.003+08:00

helllo!

finally got a new blogskin! hahaa edited until i feel like slping it actually got a column for tagboard and profile but its not working, so the tagboard is located below my entries (which is quite a good spot!) anyway i have nothing to intro about myself on 'Profile' column. Because i cant be saying, " I'm cute, My friends and I rock, I love to design blar blar blar..." like so kiddy.

no offence! i mean theres totally nothing wrong with it but its just that i don wish to. haha. im afraid i will be saying things like, "I'm 21 this yr gosh im getting OLD!" sound quite bad to those who re 21 yrs and above. ahaha.

i spent my two sundays at home, seriously i have forgotten what i have done for the past sundays. haha. my body starts to itch after i ate seafood, thats super torturing because i love seafood!!

thats really a bad news for me :(

i read a book this morning, its a true story which entices me to read further. But because its a true story, i feel terrified after reading it. It describes the life of a female artist who suffered agony and pain throughout her childhood and teenage period. She got sexual harassed when she was as young as ten and got raped at the age of 13.

shes straightforward towards her feelings and thats what makes me feel connected to the story. (which basically freaks me out)

hahaa. i think i still prefer comedy love story. lighthearted story like Confession of a Shopaholic makes me happy and relaxed. And i love the movie! hahaa. it makes me feel that life cant be that bad even if you were in debts and out of job. haha so what is there to worry about since both didnt happen to me ahhah.

There will be a way out and theres still hope in life if you dont give up." yes thats what i interpreted from de story. haahhah. but yea, its a story la! might be fiction!

hahaa sometimes i got influenced and got so pessimistic abt life. but fortunately, there are reminders to be positive and optimistic. haha maybe im borned with it! ahhaha.

lets all be happy alright?

happy thoughts ! =)

2009-04-10T10:17:00.003+08:00

can you believe its an 6 yr old kid's artwork?

haha actually i admire the kids! they can start to learn things they are interested in. thinking back, i never got to do things i like when i was a kid! hahaha i can only remember myself playing sports like basketball or swimming.

sometimes i miss the smell of my sweat! HAHA. miss training under the sun for straight 3 hours without lunch, whole body shaking after i reached home, and being so skinny as if i wont get fat even when i eat the whole earth up.

hahaa. my sis used to admire my flat stomach!!!

LOL. hmmm i miss netball life.

though i look like a librarian. hahaha. thats what most ppl said. zzz. i find it irritating, because i was a school team player and i played sports since young!

yea im gg to start my engine soon, so please those who wanna sweat it out call me!!! tag me!!! hahaha.

alright its a random post cos seriously my life has been a rollercoaster ride for month April. ups and downs. hahah im gg to look forward to life!! Im running! =)

2009-04-05T14:40:00.002+08:00

AGAIN!!

my yoga teacher texted me. lol. yea im having gastric flu again, i think already 3 times since i entered ocbc. hahah. the most recent wan is last two weeks ago, i got stomach flu due to stress. i have got stress symptoms can you believe it?? haha and it leads to my skin problems and stomach disorder.

this time, it feels so different because my stomach is really painful and i cant even stand straight because my back is aching like mad. ahha. the moment i stepped out of my house, i vomited. So i went back and asked my brother to drive me to the doctor. haha. the worse thing was i wanted to slp but my stomach jus couldnt let me to!! hahaa very irritating and i felt so helpless. dunno where all the medicine gone to!! haha.

this was the first time i feel so weak. cant even go see doc myself. haha.

a very memorable gastric flu for me, i promise im gg to take care of my health from today onwards! hahaha.

i love you:)

2009-03-30T21:10:00.002+08:00

haha so many things to say!

1. i have just applied for SIM. im stunned too! its really a tough decision, torturing me for days and weeks. and finally yay! we made this decision. me and my best friend!! hope we can enter the same class!

2. father continues to nag like a woman. discourages me from studying SIM and wants me to stay in that meaningless job. Thank god im smart i just told him after i applied. Sometimes we jus cant be too honest about things. because i already knew his ans before i went to apply. and he still nags about reaching home at 11 plus pm. which is like very very irritating though i know he meant good.

3. i have a boyfriend! yay. ok i said that before hahah but i think only a handful knows about this so ya don get so upset when you got to know from my blog, friends!! haha jkjk.

4. hes really nice to me:) im so lucky to have him!

5. my godpa was admitted to the hospital days back and seriously i found myself a bit nervous when i was at the A&E answering the questions the staff asked. i kept repeating fever and stomache when he was asking whether does he cough or vomit. im glad hes ok already!! :)

6. my branch is top sales this month!! hahaha we really put in a lot of efforts. bad news is, they stop giving me commission! :(

haha been really busy happying tiring!

oh YA,

7. I have changed my sony eric to LG secret! hahah its really cheap!! :) $28!! i thought $100 is very cheap alrd but its less than that!! ahhaha.

im going to save up now, looking at the textbook's prices. one book = $100.

hahaa so yea no shopping for me!! hahaa.

2009-03-30T20:43:00.002+08:00

there s no _ _ _.

though we went to G A P.

hahaha. thats stupid!

hahaha he looks like a schoolboy! but i look like a retard. haha.

alright i seem better now hahaa. more natural!! lol.

hello! we are together! hahaha.

2009-03-22T17:12:00.002+08:00

hey!!

omg its been so long since i updated!! hahah miss me? HAHA.

Good news: Im happily attached!! hahahaa.

stunned?

hahaha im stunned too!

hmm dunno where to start from, so im ending my post! hahaah shall blog again with pictures! :) EXCLUSIVE! hahaa.

2009-03-02T21:04:00.004+08:00

i never thought someone would do this for me
and the happiest thing was, the person who did that is the boy 3doors away! haha. i was overwhelmed with joy:)

thankyou! its a pleasant stun! surprise i mean. haaha.

i even fall in love with the box!! hahaah i like the colour and the flower!

thats ridiculous!

i told you i love the box. hahahaaa. ok enough of that.

here comes the starS of the night!

oreo and strawberry cheesecakes!! they are among my top favourites!
but i love the strawberry more hahah though its not as rich as the oreo. =)

i know i didnt say much but sometimes i feel more than i say.
im really happy with you around dummy!

2009-03-01T13:59:00.006+08:00

im craving for salmon nowww. hahaa. good food can change one person's mood to become better, this is what i believe hahaha. i really enjoyed japanese food. =) and the best part was, you know you are eating something healthier with lesser oil and fats.

hmmm im still thinking of the salmon fish egg and udon hahaha.

went yoga @ 9am this morning, i felt like im doing some physio. hahaa im quite glad that i have some improvement, im becoming more flexible. hahaa. jiayou qiutin!! =)

after that went breakfast with my godpa for dimsum! hahaa. actually its a good thing, for waking up early for some stretching and bonding session with my godpa. its a meaningful morning! hahaa.

a lot of things on my mind. sometimes im even afraid to say it out loud, because im also afraid of losing something?

yst there was a complaint case. I feel very exhausted. it was abnormally busy because ppl came banking in their gst cheques. and DAMN please dun come on saturday to do all the shit stuff when you can come on weekdays. im saying those ppl who are super free and available on the weekdays. Imagine, 3 customers 1 colleague asking for my help at the same time. Im not superwoman. I was basically spinning around helping everyone i saw.

and yes, i made a blunder. no matter how tied up i was, i should have told my colleague that the customers needed some help at HER table. It was quite apparent that she was free at the time. The cctv showed that she was chatting with the cisco.

But nobody brought up this issue. and yes it was my fault because i was so busy that i forgot to tell her that. so the customer was pissed off because she thought why nobody was attending to her. I thought it was our culture to ask customers whethe they need help. And seriously, i have some misunderstanding. But the customer in the end complained my the other colleague because she thought she was rude to her.

yes, but it concluded that it was because I let the customer wait for so long and hence she was pissed off SO she find fault with my colleague. the customer waited for 10 mins to q up to the counter and 10 mins for sitting and 5 mins at the table. its like, 5 mins????? because i Let her wait for 5 mins?? and I was the one who asked my colleague to help her after that. And everyone damn well knew that we were busy!!

isnt it a common sense thing to ask customer whether they need some help when they were sitting down at your table??

and yes, it was my fault. all my fault for being so busy and thinking that ppl have common sense. why cant they help me out? i don understand.

my legs are so painful from standing whole day long. I have to cope with two queues. and hundreds of ppl's feelings. because everyone hates waiting. And when they flared up, it was my fault because i didnt handle their feelings well enough.

its seriously so unfair?

like cheryl mentioned before, we are like dogs serving the customes seeing our bosses's and colleagues faces. den we became scapegoats when things go wrong.

Absolutely right.

why don they see the cctv and see how hard we have been working and give us more incentives.

Your hard work is all gone like this because of one blunder.

of cos i felt something though a complaint might be something unavoidable everyday. but i feel that i shldnt have pushed myself to work so hard.

please don do silly stuff anymore. uh. maybe i shldnt be doing.

2009-02-28T19:34:00.011+08:00

a fab feb 2009 #
im going to strangle you again! hahaha.
watched he's not that into you acted retarded did silly stuff travelled strangled him expo walk towning jumping around car rides complex traffic lights off hearttoheart talks:)

met up with my ex colleague cluedo tibits viewing mall popeye aeroplanes pooh bear&eeyore
its the thought that counts, really. :)

get well soon alright tzehui!!

underworld one dvd two fifty nice dinners sun flower dares ten cent mcflurry treat:)

2009-02-28T19:12:00.008+08:00

V.
N 1 c o o k i e s c ak e m us h r oom pot c ar ri de s tr ee t l ig hts n ig ht :)

..night lights

canele :)

byee: )

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2009-02-26T23:22:00.002+08:00

hello im still alive! haha. this is the first soft toy i have bought since ages. i dunno whats got onto me seriously. hahaha. maybe its simply too cute to resist. he caught my eye from far!! and i told myself, im going to get it. hahaha. and the chocolate hes sitting on is simply heaven!! hahah. chocolate coated with strawberry yoghurt inside. =)

hahaa ok im gg to bed now! sleepy! oh ya, my new blog song. seriously i dunno whats the song (because its with the new blogskin) until i went to search on youtube. its addicted by steve. i think its not bad. haha.

2009-02-15T16:34:00.001+08:00

up next! :)

2009-02-15T14:50:00.007+08:00

dinner@ shodoku! :)

thats shitong! :)
haha i think hes gg to cry. i completely forgot that he doesnt like cheese & noodles. (for this, i know).

13 - i only take ice lemon tea and plain water. i don take noodles and i hate cheese. haha too bad
extracted from st's twenty five random things

i felt quite bad!! i m sorryyy. hahaa. next time u can forceme to eat raw veggy (v. disgusting!) lol.

he went stoned when the waiter asked himwhich type he wanted for his pasta haha so cute la he because that was the 1st time he ate sphagetti so he didnt know anything abt that. im sorryok! lol

but dinner was great for me! :) haha. i got to eat both hahaha. and his pasta was nice too! im gg to order that the next time. ahaa. there seemed to be endless things to talk about each time and i seriously have no idea why! haha.

im satisfied:)

***

watched underworld and benjamin's button in a row. and underworld is nice!!! it kept me captivated and seriously im terrified by the werewolves! hahah they are scary. i think the male lead is also quite scary! hahaha. but i like the story. the tempo is good the sound effects are great too because i almost jumped out of myseat lol. im looking forward to the 2nd part!

ben's button. a sentimental story. it makes me feel that love is selfless. even if im not related to you by blood, i will still love you as who you are. thats what ben's 'mum' taught me. ahha.

but i felt its quite draggy because the whole movie took almost 3 hrs. haha. i cant sit still for taht long.

***

2009-02-15T14:34:00.003+08:00

haha. yes yes we are in de toilet taking pics again. cos we shy! hahhaha.

yanting is so nice to accompany me to facial!! she waited 1and half hrs for me!!!!! i wonder will my future boyfriend do the same for me?

and doing facial is a torture!! i cried. yes. its so painful to de point where i didnt even know i was starting to tear. haha. Girls are stupid sometimes. lol. but they are determined! because they want to be pretty, so they are willing to suffer a bit . haha.

***

2009-02-15T14:25:00.004+08:00

haha okie thats me in spects so you have seen it. Haha. thats taken after the swim.

went swimming with hazel a week back and she was a pro! i really admire her!!! she can swim for 3 hours!!!!! she really got a lot of determination that we don have. go go go hazel! haha. and she gt a nice tan as a result of it. haha. efforts paid off!

and shes really nice to accompany me the newbie swim. hahahaa. i drunk a lot of water (from swimming pool) lol. =(

im bad at swimming. haha.

****

2009-02-15T13:05:00.016+08:00

im sorry im quite a tortoise!

b b q @ east coast! peishan's birthday!

long time no see!! we met ard 4 yrs ago when we were all sixteen. haha. and nw we are gg twentyone!!!!! hahaa time flies..

peishan & me.
she likes to hold the camera high up in the sky when shetakespictures. haah.

im quite short!! so poor her, had to bent a bit. hahaha.

and now shes a bit shorter than me lol.

i was suggesting to do the 'leap in the air'. hahahaha.

which was a total failure.

but we had fun!! :)

haha laughing like mad caught in action.

hello betsy! shirly, what a good shot! haha!

threesome! we decided to keep ourselves busy by camwhoring. haha.

shirly aka our pineapple.

she remains the same! haha but betsy begged to differ.

'no leh i think she became cuter!'

hahaa. my memory is not tt bad afterall.

de sky changed its colour,

but we remained de same!

some of the things can be forever. i believe. :)

we werelearning how to cycle! good evening mr. chen!

haha. shirly picked up things quite fast! within less than an hour, she could cycle alrd!

haha. because i learnt cycling last time, so i could cycle on my own after a few attempts of almost banging onto people.

hahaa i remembered the passer by uncle. hahahaaa i was turning the bicycle so slowly away from him, almost knocking onto him. hahaa. i saw him laughing!

it was fun playing with the bell! we kept pressing the bell when those black blacks walk past. hahahaa. ok la, actually it was only me who did that. hahaha.

cycling at night was fun and relaxing!

MOS. for dinner. :)

i love the milk tea!

and we walked from marine parade to bedok. haha can you believe it!

ok thats really the longest walk i had in my entire life.

haha. actually it didnt seem that far maybe because we were busy talking. lol.

i think we always do silly stuff! haha.

but its actually fun!

2009-02-09T11:20:00.002+08:00

i cant remember things. i forget things the very next minute. haha.

for e.g. my dad jus called to ask me to do something, the moment i hanged up i completely forgot what he asked me to do. and tts the reason why he scolded me that day. lol.

i kept telling myself to bring my jacket out, but i always forgot. Or sometimes i would suddenly rem when i reached downstairs. I almost forgot to bring the birthday present out the other day, aand went back for it. I dont remember where i place my stuff so i ended up spending time looking for them. I forgot to say a l ot of things, but i suddenly rem what i wana say when i reached home.

maybe im distracted? brain too occupied?

too much confusions?

haha so i have to write down what i need to do next almost everytime on my post it note.

so you know waht to buy for me right! lol jkjk.

yea another thing of the things that bothered me.

me and tzehui are only buddies. now and forever. haahhaa. sounds so funny la. alright maybe not forever. lols! but please, we don like each other. and never did we. haha.

for those who miss tzehui, here you go! hahahahaa.

it comes with a package. so you got to see his gf too! :) good deal eh!

for more details, go to apple-weeds.blogspot.com

2009-02-04T23:15:00.005+08:00

jus had a chat with susan. right now im feeling so mixed up?

actually before this, cheryl and i had touched on another sensitive issue, which left me confused as well.

i have been running. away from these issues. the two important issues.

and my brother was saying, 'don always look at money to find your job.'
seriously i feel that we don understand each other at all?
IF im looking at the money, I wont find a job related to service.

after watching the chn 8 show, i feel so afraid. my brother's words came to my mind, 'look for a job you have interest in.'

accountancy.
do i have interest in it?
seriously i dunno. i cant answer.
1stly, i never work in accountancy firm before, how i know?
2ndly, i know im good at the subject. but does that mean im interested in accountant's work?

if you were to ask, im not working for money. From the start until now, de decision I made is not because of this sign, $.

I wont choose my course in the 1st place if i think money is important. Hospitality & Tourism.
Recall back, why did i choose this course. because i love interacting with people and i feel a sense of satisfaction after giving them a good service.

does this qualify?

some jobs, yes. it might fit this criteria, but after some time, the job become mundane. and slowly, i lost interest in it?

so, sometimes i wonder, So what if i like my job? At the end of the day, I will lose interest in it. Which is equal to Having no interest in the job.

you know wat i mean.

sigh.

Events. That was my 1st job. Maybe its not a company that emphasizes on events, hence I feel that its not really what i wanted? so i quit. and through this job, i learnt that we need to make a lot of sacrifices on health and time.

simply put it as no life. but de job can be meaningful.

but what if i have a family next time, am i still suitable for this kind of job?

so what do you want!

i feel really really confused.

can you give me an answer please?

accountancy job, i have been telling myself i will gain satisfaction after each task is completed. uh. but thinking of staring at the computer, checking accounts the whole day, makes me feel demoralized.

so, do i have an interest in that? im afraid not because im alrd demoralized.

and my brother was saying things like don waste your time anymore.......

i know i know.

even my godpa was asking me about entering of uni this evening over dinner. 'if you wanna go, then go. make up your mind.'

make up my mind.

so after the tedious dinner with my godpa, I saw my brother when i reached home.
then came a fight. then came my father who scolded me. then came susan.

Im supposed to be happy today, because tml is my off day, the day i have been waiting for the whole week. I have been feeling lethargic since monday. I had been thinking to take MC since monday. and i have hanged on till now.

i envy those who have a goal in their life. so no matter how hard it is, don give up. because its not easy to come up with a goal in the first place. so please go for it! try your best!

wish me luck.

2009-02-02T19:38:00.006+08:00

twen ty five

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!these facts are the more random things you might not now about not things people might already know

1. im quite a random person haha

2. i often wake up after 4 snooze. so if i set my alarm at 7am, i will wake up at 740am. 730am is de time i shld wake up if i don want to be late; so i always set it at 6.50am

3. after i brush my teeth, i will cleanse my face, put toner, moisturizer, wear contacts, sun block (if got time) and foundation&blusher hahaa. why? because its so difficult to wear contacts after applying the sunblock as my face is too 'smooth' so my fingers cant open my eyes properly. hahaa you know wat i mean?

if you understand, you are my true friend! haha.

4. when im not talking, something is wrong

5. i don blowdry my hair with a comb, in fact i seldom use a comb haha.

6. my ezlink card is never kept in my wallet

7. i will put a pack of tissue in my pouch where i put my contact lens case and spects. in case i need to take my contacts off and i need to dry my hands before doing so.

8. i can use up 1 and half bottles of contact lens solution in around 1 mth.

9. i don use overdued contact lens

10. i love to talk on the phone!

11. i like to 'sa jiao'. hahhaaaaaa. when im comfortable with you.

12. i like to jump onto people i like lol.

13. i seldom initiate chats on msn

14. im afraid to let people see through me; what im thinking, who i am

15. i really cherish the people i love though it doesnt seem like hahaa.

16. i don have a clique, but i have a few good friends:)

17. i become unnatural when im with a group of people i dunno

18. i prefer to hang out with smaller groups it makes me more comfortable haha strange? because im quite noisy so you might think i shld be comfortable with big group.

19. i always tell myself to go for it so that i wont regret it later. so i can be 'overly' optimistic and got myself hurt at the end of the day. sometimes hahaa.

20. i like to laugh very much, it makes my blood flow. haha.

21. im quite nonsensical sometimes, you shld know by now haha.

22. its easy to move me . im quite light. hahah. no la, i mean '感动我'.

23. i meet my godparents at least once a week

24. i wanna have a dog after i get married:)

25. im lousy at guessing games!

woo im so tired now. haha. everyone is feeling so sick the whole day today. im K.O ing soon, my head was spinning and cheryl and i were feeling cold the whole day at work.

i need 24 hrs of sleep badly. haha.

oh ya, are you reading this? YOU ARE BEING TAGGED! :)

2009-02-01T21:46:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you, PEISHAN! :)

more to come! :)

2009-02-01T17:40:00.007+08:00

jog ging
when i was jogging, Mac and junky food came to my mind. how many rounds do i need to jog to shed away the fats..suddenly i regretted eating mac for dinner the day before I went jogging. hahaa.

hello. :)

its alrd 720am but the sky was still bright.

on my way home.

hahaha. i simply cant resist the temptation. :)

2009-02-01T17:32:00.002+08:00

time flies - 20years and counting. :)

hey thats koala aka xiao yang! hahaha. she looks like a lamb! ahaha and shes super hyperactive okie!! and she knows hw to stand and dance around! hahaha. why is she named koala.

one night, she hugged the bolster and sleep. hahahaa. jus like a koala bear. thats so cute imagine that!

it took me a lot of effot to take a clearer picture of her, because she was so active that almost all de pics are blurred!

2009-02-01T16:40:00.018+08:00

c n y 1st`

hey lengleng! :)

he got upset earlier on, so we decided to take him to mac. haha.

and he looked perfectly fine when we reached the lift. ahah.

i wish i were a kid

i look retard but they are so cute! haha. so i got no choice but to upload this. haha.

hehe. we are just so excited over them.

hehe.

ahahaa. my little nephews kept asking me to take picture of them eating. ahaha. so cute la!

haha i love him in this photo! super cute with his bo gay.

haha i asked him to pose for me.hahaha.

ahahaha. i dunno how i managed to capture this.

they made me laugh. :D

they asked me to take wan! hahaa.

i think he can be an actor next time. ahahhaa. he was acting hooligan.

while waiting for them to finish the happymeal. :)

my closest cousin! :)

they say my hair looks like extensions. eeeee.

NO! hahaa. its real ok!

i need a haircut!

2009-02-01T16:22:00.010+08:00

yes! finally went bakerzin! :) heyy buddy! :)

we stood at the counter for around 5mins to decide on de two tiny round cookies. ahha.

because everyone of them looked yummy!

the pink one reminded me of the fever medicine pills. haha.

hmm i think i prefer sponge-like cakes. haha they are easier to bite. i like cakes which are spongy! hahaa. but the one above is not bad still.

this is so unlike the one on the poster! zzz.

haha. i gt evidence!

compare the 1st picture and this.

haha but its quite nice:)

i like my new skirt-like shorts!

2009-02-01T14:11:00.012+08:00

waraku! :)

hello! :)

theres a story behind this. a little boy climbed through the hole and come to me! den he kept smiling to me and i was like mummy mummy there (i pointed to the direction where his mum was looking at us) den he ran to that direction and came back to me again! LOL. hes super cute!!

hes a mixed blood so that might explain why hes so friendly! he came to touch my hand! HAHA. his mum and him started playing hide and seek. when his mum was abt to enter the restaurant, he wanted to climb out. when his mum returned to catch hold of him, he ran back to me. hhahaa this happened for ard 3 times before he climbed out and saw his grandma. By that time, his mum alrd came behind me. hahaha. and we smiled to one another like we know each other. lol. his son is super cute and hyper.! too bad i din take a pic of him, i was too busy you see!

katsu don! :)

curry beef horfun. ahaha.

how to fold a peacock.
this is the 1st time i know we can fold paper into peacock. haha.

i miss my fringe. :(
and yanting of cos! hahaa.

ahha i dunno why i look so happy!! and seriously i look like a retard. haaha.

de ghost of you and me. haha.

2009-01-29T12:53:00.002+08:00

hello, new bangs

thats me, my blur godma aka aunty, my sleepy mum and my sis

hmm, i was busy telling aunty about wat happened on Chu Yi and seriously, there was no cny mood. she didnt even bother to receive the mandarin oranges that we gave. she simply said, ok ok happy cny, put the oranges there."

uh, i know she mus be feeling lonely, with her husband and children overseas leaving behind the maid with her. i swear i did try to make things better by making myself self-entertaining; blabbering non stop throughout.

i m t i r e d .

sometimes i just wish someone can jus give me a hug and rock me to sleep. hahaa. ok i shall stop dreaming.

woohoo. a family picture.
the only thing that my dad has in common with my bro's gf is the colour of clothes they are wearing. haha.

i have been so lazy to upload pictures these days.
these pictures are koped from facebook. lol.

2009-01-28T23:57:00.007+08:00

yay im taking off tml! hahaa. i m so tired today!

but the time passed v quickly, the fastest ever during these few mths. haha. my legs are breaking, uh maybe i shld learn break dancing! hahaa

maybe tzehui is right. haha but deep in my heart, i don wish you are right this time.

sigh, im thinking about it the whole day/time. please give me some light.

hmm. okies im not emo don worry! its jus part of my incoherent thoughts haha.

anybody wanna go swimming? please text me. hahaa.
i realised girls these days don swim!

reason 1:
swimming spoils hair texture, turns it to grass (super dry)

reason 2:
lazy to to

reason 3:
dunno hw to swim and not intending to learn

reason 4:
needs to apply sun block all those

reason 5:
swimming is not cool to them, they have better things to do

hahaaa. i actually gt reasons which are not mentioned above which make me fear to go swimming alone.

so its really difficult to get a female companion!

i miss you.

2009-01-27T23:57:00.002+08:00

hey, im missing you

old fringe!

hahaa.

and of course yanting! meow:)

meet up soon alright!