yet its not.

usually my boss will give coffee to those who performed well; promotion to pfc, promotion to rm or probation passed.

and today, he bought a cup of coffee. guess its for who?



yea its for me. i was stunned. and at the same time happy of course. all these mths of hardwork im finally recognised by my boss. BUT no..i don think he sees my efforts. one word from his friend, im being recognised? thats so lame.

yesterday, his friend came and apparently i treated him as a customer. so i did what i usually do and had a small talk with him. i heard he was saying im good before they left for coffee.

heard from boss hes a high ranked officer and he was once a service officer. he commented on my good service and boss said i have been following the service model blar blar blar.

but i dunno why, i felt so lousy. because it seemed that nobody was really happy for me except cheryl? and i even heard stuff like, 'issit because she makes alot of mistakes?' (thats why she got the coffee) and 'wa she quite lor soh'.

dot dot dot.

and i don even drink coffee.

boss asked me whether i drink coffee haha. straightaway i said no. and said maybe i can pass it to my colleague or him. haha.

im not that happy la seriously.

and he said, i have been improving but need to brush up my product knowledge. and said ppl from head office have complimented on my good attitude.

and my reply was, 'they know me???'

haha. yea la they know me as aljunied sa. i know my reply was dumb but that was what came to my mind. lol. waht am i supposed to reply?

shld i say thank you?

i dunno why but somehow thats something between us. and i jus cant open up to him and..because of one word from his friend he can praise me. So does it mean that if his friend never came, he wont get to know my working attitude?

so he never sees my efforts all along?


and i don feel good at all.

and it adds pressure to me somehow. now everyone is watching me.


i got to know becky from cheryl today and she is from a very very different background from me. she is very very rich if im not wrong. she owns two companies? and her parents have all kinds of connections around singapore. that kind.

but its nice chatting with her though half the time shes worrying about her recent problem.

yup i guess im like a frog in a well. HAHA.


oh ya and i passed the coffee to the one who said stuff like what i mentioned above.


everything is liek so ironic.


ok i m learning to forgive & forget. and thats good right! lol.