i decided to type something to vent my emotions; so beware if you were to continue reading. hahaha. don worry im not that emo! lol.

i think i have been too nice at my workplace that everyone would step all over me. thats the contradicting part, ppl tend to help u if u are nice, but they tend to push their luck too!! yea man, there is a 'notice' on our notice board. "The staff don need physicial exercise because they are doing exercises below: 'Backstabbing, pushing their luck, running down their boss's neck, etc'.

haha no wonder i haven slim down!! i haven been doing all those!!

towards customers, of cos i need to be professional nice and helpful. so usually i cant vent anger on any of them. towards colleagues, because i would need their help and to make my life easier at work, i need to give in to them.

somehow, that might be the reason why i got easily irritated by my family.

its not easy to always being so nice letting ppl taking advantage of me and smile after that.

i m sick of seeing the ulgy side of people; but thats life, we bound to see this kind of ppl. When i see horrible ppl who are devoted christians/buddhists, i wonder are they supposed to be taught to be nice? or at least not being bad to others? or wat did they learn actually?

i wonder la. but their actions are definitely below my expectation, sad to say.


haha ok enough of my rantings!

i jus got a pair of fred perry canvas from st! =) hahaha and i got myself a new bag!! =) its also nice to shop when you are stressful!! even if you dunno wat to buy, just buy anything because it will make u feel better i realised. hahaha. i bought a cute notebk at $1.50 (its on sale) yst ! haha.

i hope i can defer my admission to SIm because i guess i need to earn more money or else i will be so insecured! Please let me defer!!