hello!

it feels like ages since i logged in to blogger. i almost forget my password. haha.

i became a full time interviewee after i left my job in june. the process of finding jobs is not as difficult as deciding which career path i shld embark on.

besides having to convince myself, i have to convince the interviewer, my dad and the people around me that, i would like to have a change in line. u know, sometimes its so hard to convince myself when I stumbered on the obstacles.

Cases like, no replies no calls after sending almost 100 over resumes. I know that its really tough to find that job without any related qualification. Getting screwed up by the interviewers. Those looks that 'say aiya dunno what you want la' can kill.

This period is the worse time of my life. i never felt so out-of-control before. I have been making decisions when i was a kid, everything was properly placed.

My dad said that i have wasted my diploma. you shld have studied accountancy instead! so stupid of you. i felt like saying, hey its not as if you paid for my school fees.

Jus when i needed some moral support, I got nothing but these comments. Im not as strong as I appear. I have never been that afraid before. I made a promise to my dad that I will find a job, and I have to make sure that I wont quit this time.

sometimes im hardly breathing.

i couldnt imagine i had to go back as a part time promotor again. haha. its really like an insult to me. but luckily I was not really that pessimistic, or else i think i might sink into depression or something.

and thats because i have those special ppl by my side. a big thankyou to my godma my bf n my twin! haha thankyou. :)